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Where Have I Been?


Recently I found myself in this place. 
I don't really know how to describe it. 
I felt like I was just completely closed off. 
Like I had experienced so much heartache and pain in my life that I was just done. 
I was done feeling. 
I was definitely done being hurt.
And if anyone had hurt me in the past - well I was done with them too. 
After all, they had proven to be unsafe, unhealthy, and toxic to my life. 
Why would I want to keep exposing myself to that? 

I found myself in this place.
And I didn't like. 

I desperately wanted peace.
And in my desperation I thought if I removed all the people that were robbing my peace...
If I built those walls...
If I just don't let them in...
Somehow I would find peace. 
But I was experiencing the exact opposite.
And I was slowly beginning to give up on the idea that I could ever experience the type of peace I desired on this side of Heaven. 

Several months ago I as invited to a conference and although there were a thousand reasons to say no, I ended up saying yes. 
I had no idea what I was in for. 
I just knew I had to do something. 

So I went. 
And my heart was transformed. 
I experienced peace on a level that I have never experienced before. 
A peace beyond my expectation and certainly beyond my understanding. 

I am certainly not saying that there aren't people out there that have been dealt far more pain and suffering than I have in my life.
All I know is my story. 
But I also know that they too can walk in this place of perfect peace. 


Is my life perfect?
No. 
Do I not still have bad days?
Absolutely. 
But I know I am in the perfect place. 
God has got me. 
And he has you too. 

So the real question isn't where I have been...
It's where I am going. 

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