One month ago today we found out Kanton's heartbeat was gone. I am not sure how it has been a month already as if feels like we just found out yesterday. It has been a tough month. That is probably a huge understatement. The grief is still so very raw. I still cry everyday for my boy - several times a day. Everything reminds me of him. The birds. The butterflies. The rain. I find myself staring at the clouds wondering what Heaven is like and what he is doing there without me. I have read a lot of scripture. I have read several devotionals. Some help more than others. Being is public is still very hard for me. I feel like the emotions are just under the surface and I never know when something is going to cause them to overflow. I find it to be a little easier when I am in a place where no one knows my story. But then in a second something - or nothing - can happen that brings all my emo...
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